I'm An Outcast

I’m an outcast, my emotions driven.

Made one wrong move and now I’m hidden

Too scared to speak against the pressure

Now I’m broken beyond measure.

I try not to cry ‘cause I know it’s weakness

You betrayed me and I thought I deserved it.

But I can no longer hold it in.

Darkness wins, and I cut my skin.

Hear your words piercing my heart.

Hit the center with your darts.

 

I’m an outcast, time has passed

Through the trials, I did last.

But the life has still not come back.

Yet I feel there is something I lack.

I’ll search and try to find it.

And try to ignore my slits.

Hiding in the shell is all I do.

Keep to myself so there’s nothing I lose.

Put my head down, roll up my sleeves 

Like always, going through the routine.

 

I’m an outcast, and I’m surviving.

Took the punch, but I’m still living.

I stopped believed all you ever said.

Now I’m happy, being myself instead.

The light has come; I’m breaking free.

From the prison walls of insecurity

So now, I’m singing a new melody.

And finally seeing all I was meant to be.

I have scars, but they remind me,

Of the true and loving mercy.

What could finally give me peace,

Was locked deep inside of me.

I let it all out and now I’m full.

The things you hide make you beautiful.

 I wrote this poem a few weeks ago. Though it isn't about me, I relate to the feelings in it. I've in the midst of writing a novel and had a really cliché title to it. But the word 'outcast' rang my mind. So I changed the title to that single word. This word inspired me to write this poem.

 

I'm obsessed with Frozen. (Okay, that's obvious) Even before I watched the movie, Elsa's 'Let it Go' scene always stuck on to me. I don't agree with the, 'No right no wrong/No rules for me' line, but the basic meaning of the song is so true. We all have a tendency to hide the one thing that makes us special because of fear. This song inspired the last line of the poem.