Where God Has Brought Me

Originally, I was planning on posting a poem that I've been dying to get out, but I can't find the notebook I wrote it in. I need to stop owing so many notebooks. I swear I have so many that I've never actually filled. 

As an alternative, I have decided to write a post I should have written on my birthday.

As a child, I was committed to Christ. He gave me the gift of memorization. I had a knack for memorizing Bible verses. That's a way I became close to God and started to understand him. But I think the most important part in my conversion, other than Jesus, was my parents. They always did all they could to make sure I knew about Jesus and how I could have a relationship with Him. When I understood it, I was baptized.

But years after that, I was drifting away. Of course, I never wanted to tell anyone this. I was still going to church and reading the Bible, but it all seemed dead to me. Last year, I recommitted my life to Christ. It was that time when I realized that nothing compares to Him. Nothing. And that, he truly watches over me.

Every once in awhile, I would get a doubt. A evil whisper in the wind would question all I've ever known to be true. "How can you be sure God is real? What if this is all... for nothing? After all, it can't be proven until you die. By then, it will be too late. If you're wrong, if you believe this until you die, you're taking a risk."

Yes, God can't be scientifically proven. No, we will never see him physically until we die. But since then, I have to come to a conclusion. I do see Him. I see Him everyday.  In His Word, in the stories I hear, in life. If all the stories, if all the "coincidences" didn't happen, I'd question it. The truth is, they do happen. Because I know, without a doubt, that God is real. Every day he watches me. Every day he forgives me. Every day he stays faithful, when I do not.

He finally came through to me and one of my lowest lows. Even then, when I had constantly rejected him, He was watching out for me. Nothing could ever not convince me of that.

Am I a perfect Christian now? No. Is God all love, not caring if we skin, because he'll forgive us anyway? Of course not. But I think, through it all, God will always be with me.

Through this fifteen years, he will continue to be. He got me through my grandparent's death last year. He continues to give me ideas. He gave me the gift of music. I will always be thanking Him. Anything I could do would not equal to His unfailing love.

So I hope you like this post. I would like to share yet another song from one of my favorite artists, Britt Nicole, with Owl City. This song is so beautiful. It captures what God feels for us. It's called, "You're Not Alone."

You rescue me and I believe that God is loving
He is all I need
For these days forth
For all eternity
I'll never wander on my own
For I am yours until you call me home
I close my eyes and I can hear you say
You're not alone
Ooh
You're not alone
Ooh