Dedicated to Anna

This post is going to be a hard one. So bear with me....

Some of you know that Anna from God's Girl is moving. (a week from tomorrow) You might also know that she is my best friend. This is hard to be to accept and I'm not okay with it right now.

She has been there for me for a long time. I can talk to her about things that I can talk to no one else about and I know she'll understand. Though we don't agree on everything, we still somehow work. It's a God thing. If we weren't Christians, our friendship would be dead by now because this year I've realized how much we don't have in common.

But that's okay. So this poem is how I'm going to get my feelings out. It's been a hard time trying to get all my feelings out. It's so confusing. It's so sad. Sometimes you're just asking, Why? But God has a reason for everything.

So this is it:

This time I know it's real, no take-backs.
Life as we know it has ended.
I know they say you'll always be in my heart.
But I don't know how you can go without tearing me apart.

Where has it gone? It seems like only yesterday?
I was sitting at a beautiful shore.
But now I've plunged right into it.
I'm gasping for air.
But I know whatever hope I have, it's nothing.

Because lately everything has gone down-hill.
Arguments, mistakes comes like a bitter winter chill.
And it seems like everything I thought we were is no more.
I've called you a million times and it seems like you've faced it.

We both saw it coming, but it knocked me out.
And I know you're leaving without a doubt.
Right now I'm unconscious, stuck in a dream.
Holding on to what we used to be.

So innocent, and we agreed on everything.
But now, like has tore the seams of what we used to be.
I've come to realize this isn't a tragedy.
So so...

This is me saying goodbye.
This is me holding you tight.
This is me waking up you up from a very bad dream.
This is me sighing you'd stay.
But I know God has a way
To make it all okay.
So I'm telling myself,
"Don't be afraid."

This poem is dedicated to Anna. It's not one of my bests, but the whole point of it was to get my feelings out. I wrote this awhile ago. When someone leaves, for some reason I always write a poem about it and it makes me feel better.

In Christ,
Sarah