I'm Not Angry Anymore

I'm not angry anymore.

For a long time, I was angry. I was mad at someone.

Someone I loved.

Someone who hurt me.

Someone who I finally forgave.

Completely.

 

Looking back at it now, it was mostly my fault.

I was bitter. I was haunted.

But now, I'm finally free.

Free from the pain that I held close to my heart,.

My chest doesn't harden whenever I think about the memories.

I don't close my eyes and picture it with dread.

Talking comes naturally now.

Now I laugh harder, smile more.

 

I never showed my anger. I kept it in the best I could.

Now I have nothing to hide.

Because the anger is gone.

It wasn't me.

It was God.

He showed me what I needed to do.

What I couldn't do.

And He did it for me.

He forgives me more than anyone.

Somehow, with Him, I've managed to forgive through His example.

 

I'm happy now, happier than I've ever been.

Even though things have changed.

For years, I held it in,

The pain, the bitterness, and anger.

Everything it comes back to haunt me,

I fight against it.

Because I know now,

How much better I am without it.

But again, it wasn't me.

It was God.

And I praise Him for it.

 

Finally, I see it for myself.

How much better it is...

That I'm not angry anymore.